totally not in my mood now...!

i not wish anything happen and happened again... i lost a friends since when i was in 13 or 14yrs old...its happened when i trying to reject him... how bad i'm... but that time really is my fault is because i lie him beside i can't get a good excuse to accept him... till now, i really can remember it and is just how shock and feel upset, why this thing happened to me... and NOW, something is really same with the case, but i not tell any lie... i even not said anything and did anything... i wonder how he will treat me so good and i can feel he is like woo-ing me again... almost the time i just perfunctorily in replying his message, his call or not even try to reply his message and accept his call plus try to reject when ajak me out although is with a gang... quite a time i not to contact with him... oh NO, is true... he HE!!! arghhhhhh!!! As from the very 1st time i reject mean i totally exactly truely and is REALly reject... no more chance... just be friends, if you prefer to woo just up to you but please, u're so irritating and annoying. I'll just treat u like non-person as my friends... but is better do not happen... please... an outsider is advising u and giving u a chance to way out from me... please, do concentrate on your work and earn the money... u'll find a better one... please... i'm just a very cruel girl... don't try to close to me... \

why do this small thing make me feel moody... spoil my mood sial!!!